Album Credits

Produced by Joe Gagliardi III and Trapper Quintero.
Recorded from November 2004 to July 2006.
Recorded at Suicide Studios – New Windsor, NY and Hit The Road Productions – Chester, NY.
Remastered (2008) by Joe Gagliardi III at Hit The Road Productions – Chester, NY.

Joe Gagliardi III
Guitars, Vocals, Bass, Drums, Keyboards, Programming, Samples and Abnormalities.

Additional Samples on Tracks 1, 5, 6 and 11 by TQ of Mercy Street.

Artwork by Joe Gagliardi III.
Cracked Moon by TQ.Joseph E. Gagliardi III

Gear Used

Power Mac G5
iMac G5
LaCie Hard Drives
iBook G4
EMachines PC
ProTools 7.0
Digidesign Digi002
MBox2
Propellarheads Reason 3
FL Studio 4
Garageband 3.0
Schecter Guitars
Epiphone Guitars
Kramer Bass
Boss GT-8 Processor
Pick Guy Guitar Picks
D’Addario Guitar Strings
LaBella Strings
Shure SM48 Microphone
Neumann Microphones
Yamaha DX-7 Synth
Roland M1
Triton Synth
Sony Stereos
Sony and Mackie Speakers.

ZSR-006

"Better Than Me" Lyrics

Wake up in this ghetto – where’s the opportunity?
Strength comes from within – strength comes from pain
Where’s the love anymore – why is there so much hate
Racists discriminate – why do you think your better than me?

Better than me?

Awake from your nightmare – do you see things differently?
Now you can see through the screen and everything in-between
Where’s our paradise? It’s all a pretentious lie
There’s no real trust anymore, it’s all gone to hell!!!

It’s all gone to hell

Sadly to state, there’s no equilibrium
The balance has shifted from equality to a status quo
Though in death this won’t even matter
But now this superficial bullshit will bring the humanistic genocidal death

Hypocrisy and falsity
Has destroyed our faith
In this government
Of the United States

Why do you think your better than me?
Is it because you’re superior?
Why do you think your better than me?
Is it because of the way that I think?
Why do you think your better than me?
You’ve convinced yourself that I know nothing?
Why do you think your better than me?
Fuck you and your authority

"Second Time" Lyrics

Bitch

The dirt crawls under my skin
Like you did in the beginning
But when you loved me, it was ok
And then you killed me and walked away
What did I ever do wrong to you? (Unlike you, I was affectionate)
We both agreed things would be different (but you betrayed me for
the second time)

Now you’re my reason for the way I am
Thanks for damaging my head again
Because of you I can’t really be
Comfortable with myself or someone else

Whore

The trust was broke by you once again
You tried to say I only wanted lust (I wanted love)
How could you even say that to me? (within your lies fabricating)
I loved you but never again (my love meant nothing to you)

Now you’re my reason for the way I am
Thanks for damaging my head again
Because of you I can’t really be
Comfortable with myself or someone else

I’ve learned my lesson for the second time
That you’ll never change or give a “this”
About someone else, except yourself
You have betrayed so lye in wait

"I'll Silence Myself" Lyrics

I despise the way you make me feel, it’s like thorns flowing through my veins
I can’t see anything in front of me; I can’t be anything but nothing to you
So I take these feelings aside and I sit alone and I cry
I just wonder why I was mislead by you

I was always there…whenever you needed me
I was utilized…to create jealousy than you shoved me away

Sometimes I starve myself to cope with the ache
Loneliness is so depressing; I can’t break away
So I take a swig of the bottle to slightly dull the agony
It’s like cutting yourself open to watch your soul bleed

This is a sure way…to kill myself again
All I ever wanted was…to be loved by you

I’m turning gray inside; I have no place to hide
My wrath’s emitting through my wounds
My soul is slaved by pain once again
I’ll kill myself to make things calm…

I’m turning gray inside; I have no place to hide
My wrath’s emitting through my wounds
My soul is slaved by pain once again
I’ll kill myself to make things calm…

There’s so much hate inside; I know I can’t deny
My inner thoughts that keep me alive
Maybe I should O.D. again, this time on heroin
Soon one day maybe I’ll silence myself again

"Silkscreen" Lyrics

The less that I speak, the more I learn
Just your eyes can tell me your secrets and lies

Your silkscreen burns away and your flesh is exposed
The inner sin in you becomes undone, corrodes

The less that I speak the more I know
Your face crumbling beneath your mask

Your silkscreen burns away and your flesh is exposed
The inner sin in you becomes undone, corrodes

It all fades away – out of my mind it’s gone
It all fades away – out of my mind it’s gone

It’s gone
Decayed away
Dead forever
Erased

Your silkscreen burns away and your flesh is exposed
The inner sin in you becomes home

"The Emptiness Inside" Lyrics

I came here today
To see you and say
All of the things that I’ve wanted to say

It’s just when I see
Your angelic face
I begin to feel you take my breath away

Maybe it’s just that I’m
Nervously intrigued
By that connection between

But for some reason I feel that maybe I’m reading into deep

The closer that I come to falling in love
The more that it pushes me away

Today is not a good day
Cause I’m thinking about giving it all away

Day after day
I still feel this way
It’s slowly drowning me in beauty

The closer that I come to falling in love
The more that it pushes me away
I guess it’s just the emptiness inside of me
Letting me know that I’m still alive

And if I die today
Will you even remember me?
Or would I just be another face in the crowd?

The closer that I come to falling in love
The more that it pushes me away
I guess it’s just the emptiness inside of me
Letting me know that I’m still alive
Even though I wish for death
To take me away
Just so I don’t have to feel
This pain again

I’m not worth it
Like a dead end
Life’s not worth it
I’m already dead

"This" Lyrics

Do you know what time it is? It’s time for a revolution…

There’s a place inside of me that’s born with love
There’s a place inside of me that’s born with hate
There’s a place inside of me that’s manipulated
There’s a place inside of me that’s desecrated

This is in all of us and this is what you cannot deny

There’s a place inside of me that tolerates
There’s a place inside of me that doesn’t understand
There’s a place inside of me that wants to heal
There’s a place inside of me that wants you to feel my pain

This is in all of us and this is what you cannot deny

In all of my life I’ve been victimized by your greed and by your lies
You think and feel nothing, when it comes to integrity, you shit on
my values and then you wonder why I’m like this
Pissed off at the world, for those who have wrongfully judged me
take a look at yourself you’re the one who has nothing to give
You worthless piece of shit, I want you to feel my anger and now I’m
going to make you understand what I’ve had to feel from you

There’s a place inside of I that is still pure
There’s a place inside of I that needs to find peace
There’s a place inside of I that is through with hope
There’s a place inside of I that wants to kill all of you

This is in all of us and this is what you cannot deny
This is in all of us and this is what you cannot deny
This is in all of us and not even I can deny this

"Honestly" Lyrics

You beat me up like a broken toy – I felt the pain, didn’t feel no joy
You treated me like this, you pushed me away – threw me to the wolves to abandon me
I remember when I was young and fragile to this devious world
You made me suffer when I begged for care – I was left all alone to die

Crud you all who made me feel
Like this with self hate deprevating

You forced me to be the mute so you could tell your reference of the truth
And when I tried to defend myself – you didn’t want to hear it so you punched me in the face
I was always to blame, no one else but me – I was your shooting gallery
It was always my fault, you fed on me cause I was born to be your slave of pain

Crud you all who made me feel
Like this with self hate deprevating

You bashed me down inside my hell – deep and far away
So no one could ever see what was truly happening
I began to disassociate with trust and began to learn how to hate
And for your actions – I became the person that intimidates

Feel the pain that I’ve felt from you, like the discontent for your only son
Feel these beating that have exorcized me, like the marks of the whipping belt
I remember when I was young and fragile to this devious world
You made me suffer when I begged for care – now I’ve become your enemy

Crud you all who made me feel
Like this with self hate deprevating
Crud you all who made me feel
Like this with self hate killing me

"These Words" Lyrics

Your fabricated like plastic
It’s just like you and everything you do

Jealousy doesn’t work anymore
Not like it use to and now you know…

These words – that I say to you – are all part of the truth
These words – that you’ve said to me – don’t mean a thing anymore

You’ve lost the respect of which you’ve never had
And you’ve lost your friends to the way that you act

Now all that I do is feel nothing more than pity for you
Cause you’ve lost yourself where it counts the most

These words – that I say to you – are all part of the truth
These words – that you’ve said to me – don’t mean a thing anymore

Goodbye…

"The Disease of Utter Disgust" Lyrics

I’m stuck inside, all by myself – no one cares to see that I’m in need of help
So I start to bleed, the cut is deeper than it appeared to be in the beginning

So I’d rather die now than to deal with the throe – it’s like being enslaved and nailed to the wall
To be laughed at, to be spit on, to be shit on by others
To be martyred, disrespected, cause I am the thing that you hate

For my beliefs
For the thoughts that makes me unique
In fear you’ll try to contain me
And then you’ll attempt to erase me

It’s all coming down onto my structure – I’m about to collapse, how much longer can I take?
It’s so hard to conceal everything that makes me feel this way – disgusted

But the reason I’m the way I am is because all of you – (who have) destroyed my innocence and have
raped the world
Of its preciousness, of its gifts, of it’s life for which you take for granted
Used by deceit, used by greed, used by the ones who don’t believe

In respect
Dignity
Loyalty
Integrity

You’ve tried everything to tame the raw emotions inside
But all you did was amplify them

You target me cause I’m a freak, I’m not like all of you pre- slaughtered sheep
Segregation is not the way, respect of diversity is
All that you ever see is black and white – you never look to see the gray
So all that this proves to me is that you’ve been too blind to see

Your flaws
Of these laws
Your ignorance for the truth makes me irate

Anti religious, anti hypocrisy, anti prejudice, anti slavery
Anti rape, anti genocide, anti fake, anti two-faced

You’ve tried everything to tame the raw emotions inside
But all you did was amplify them (and)
With all of this love and all of that hate
You’ve desecrated all that I’ve ever held sacred

Paying the rich to starve the poor, walking the streets the soul becomes torn
Blisters and distrust forms from the pain, anger and hate forms from the strain
The day will come when you get back of which you gave to me
Just the horror of those skeletons in which you’ve buried will come back to haunt you until your dead
in the grave